5.31.2005

eye-opener....

"train yourself to let of go of everything you fear to lose."

this is probably one of the hardest things to do...

i hafta thank Nikki for popping this line in our IM session just now.. it really opened my eyes and made me think about all that's been happening.. i realized that ngayon pa lang i hafta start training myself to let go of those who mean sooo much to me.. lalang...


with this in mind i slowly think about those who mean a lot to me.. a lot of names came in mind, actually... pero, there's a name that kinda made me think twice.. im not gna mention the name - although most of you guys here know who it is..- para wala na lang gulo... all i can say is that this person is one of the most important, if not the most important, guys ive come to know in this one-way road we'd all call life... ewan ko ba kung bkt... the thought of losing the person scared me, quite frankly.. i dno.. pero i really hafta train myself, so that the pain would be a little more bearable.. no, i'm not saying that the pain will all go away, cuz it won't, pero magiging mas magaan cya, even if it's just a little...

trix is out... with the thinking cap..

feeling..

contented...

birthday pla ni aika kahapon... nakalimutan ko.... oh, well.. so much for ex-girlfriends... pero salamat sa reminder Anj..

i feel lots better.. my life's back on track, and i intend to keep it that way..

can't wait for saturday... Jzone + the lunch bunch = funfunfunfunfun!!!! heheheheh.... lalang..

ill be out now.. going with Kurt to school.. apparently he forgot to sign up for his CSP post... patay na to pag wala nang ibang choice.... oh, well.. kasalanan din nmn nya.. heheh..


and im out!

5.30.2005

so now what?

still dazed.

Kim texted in last night... said that everything's okay na with Inez.. thank God at ayuz na yung prob na yun, and was dealt with in the right way.. i feel good about it, but there's still something that's gna be bugging me till the end of the summer...

is the lunch bunch still the lunch bunch?

i mean after all that just happened - which happened all so fast - to our lives these past 2 weeks, will we all be able to actually just leave everything in the past behind and pick up where we left off before all of this happened? i know for one thing that this could leave an indelible notch in our memories, and that's a sure thing.. not that i'm still in pain or anything, but it's just one of these times wherein i start asking myself if it was worth it.. i read before at a friend's blog that a friendship isn't a friendship until the first fight happens.. i hope that this is true.. wala lang.. i am in deep thought, cuz it came to the point where i had to choose.. and to be honest with all you folks, i didn't have any gall to choose.. but i'm glad that this is all over... so they say.. relief.

so, now what's next? what's there to be discovered again? will we be starting all over again? i sure hella hope so.. school year's coming up in like a week's time, and i'm surely gna miss all of them - the lunch bunch, the badmintoners, the tambay session at Kim G's house, yung dapat na tambay session at Jamon's Pt. before summer's end, all that... we're all in the next phase.. seniors na sila Kari, Kim and Inez... juniors na kmi ni Jamon.. apprehensive.

clouded, the boy's mind is... better yet, clouded, MY mind is...

so what? do i make shouts? guess so, guess not... oh well... let's just see what's in store this week.. then i'll tell you if this week's worth it... but for now...

i'm out.

5.29.2005

feeling...

better. sorta and kinda better...


nuff said i guess.

5.28.2005

what if...

i just can't help but ponder on the things that have been happening in my life... well...

things got only worse than it started out.. it became more of an entrapment than a web of trouble.. as it is, it's not getting any better, and i've come to this part of the road i never even dreamt of crossing...

i hafta choose.

to tell you honestly i have NO idea what to do.. i got caught in the middle of something that could have been prevented, but was chosen to happen.. not that i had nothing to do with it, which i do have little, since i was the one who invited one and let go of the other, knowing well that the latter might not be allowed to go, since i only learned of the cancellation of plans the day before Tim's big night, that is, his self-produced battle of the girl bands..

you want to have it straight? okay.. i'm torn between making an unusual decision for the one that i love most dearly and standing by a friendship that in so short a time has been so important to me.. i'm afraid to lose both of them.. if i choose to do one i'll lose the other end of the pole.. it's a no-win situation here, although i'd like to think that "things aren't always as bad as they seem," as my good friend Cooks Araneta told me last night..

i don't know.. i don't know what to do, feel, or even think.. this is about to become too much to bear for me.. maybe i should just quietly slip away into oblivion, as i always did before.. it's an easy way out, that's for sure... but.. this is different.. running away would mean that i don't know how to deal with it... but how will, let alone how can i deal with this?

i'm breaking down slowly but surely.. the crossroad i'm faced with has put me into this state wherein i don't know where to go, who to run to or help, even what to feel.. it's getting the best of me, and i've begun to lose my grip.. this is killing me.. if only i didn't make that mistake, then this wouldn't have happened.. if i hadn't done that friendships wouldn't be on the line.. not that im trying to inflicting self-pity upon myself but this is how i really feel about this thing..

behold, Tricco, the road you have chosen to take.. it has been divided into two parts... choose one, and you can never go back to pass thru the other one..

i am dying.. i don't know how to choose.. it's too much. for just a short moment i am not going to be tinkerbell.. im going to be Trix until this is settled..

if it gets settled even..

5.26.2005

BnL addiction...

you can be my yoko ono..

it's all been done..

who needs sleep? be happy with what you're getting, there's a guy who's been awake since the 2nd world war..

it's time to pick up your shoes, go ahead and choose sadness..

it's the perfect time of year...

if you ever do, i'm warning you. i'll be the first to crucify you..

- lines from Barenaked Ladies songs

5.24.2005

recollections from the past life.

im no longer using the 'bleem' i used to have in my livejournal and in my multiply diary, primariliy because it's been the longest time now since i last used any of those 2 previous diaries.. i don't use my lj anymore - well, except for whenever i make a comment to some friends' posts and stuff.. and my multiply diary, not so much anymore..

if Mark never found the answer to his question, why i betrayed him, the same goes for me, except that my question is:

"bat ako naging tanga by taking the girl he loves from him back then?"

yes, it happened back in 7th grade.. it cost me a lot of things - my newfound reputation as the batch loser, being hounded by that bastard Jose Antonio Vergel de Dios (and i swear i will NEVER stoop down to his level of insecurity..asshole.) for no apparent reason till the eve of gradution, among other things..

most important of all, i lost Mark.. my bestfriend for so many years.. all because i followed what the heart told me.. but is it really the heart that dictated me to inflict the most painful stab, just like Julius Caesar being stabbed last by Brutus, who was considered Caesar's best friend? or is it more of the hyped emotion? i guess i'll never find out.. the point is that it became true with myself and Mark, that your best friend can become your worst enemy.. i deserved all the treatment i got.. from him, from my batchmates, later on from her.. yes, from her..

i have long feared that my sins would come and visit me.. this line's from The Patriot starring Mel Gibson... yes, i also fear that the day would come when it would take its toll on me..

and i still cry about what i did to Mark... i never got over the fact that i was the one who destroyed everything.. ive never quite forgiven myself for that.. i know he's still having bitterness about it, and i dnt blame him...

sana hindi to maging isang napakalaking turn off...

tink out.

5.22.2005

i feel.....

strange.

for some unknown reason i feel very funny... i dunno.. basta whatever it may be, steady lang ako..

or at least, i try to be..

tink out.

i feel.....

blessed.

after last night's events, what more can i ask for? nakalibre na nga ako ng entrance sa battle of the girl bands (yes, it was, after all, entitled Summer Scram Showdown), naghost pa ako.. i got partnered to Tiff Mallillin na nga, nahatak pa ako sa Shakey's.. what do i get? i become Mallillin's Music Productions' house emcee.. heheheh... i can't believe that what started out as a thing para makalibre ng entrance dun - alam kong mali tlga - ended up being the answer to one of my long-forgotten prayers - that is, to have a hosting gig.. i couldn't ask for anything more..


shouts:

God - You are truly great for making last night's event a very successful one, to the point that You stopped the heavy rainfall and filled the place with people.. Thank You, Lord..

Chuck - o yan! alam mo na nangyari sakin kagabi ha! it's over, sabi mo nga! hehehe... kudos sa "nagsisisi" pareh... rak on!

Uneven band - you guys rocked the house and kicked big butt last night! lupet ng erotomania chka overture 1928.. going pro na to! heheheh..

The Mallillins:

Tito and Tita - salamat po for counting on me last night in hosting the event with Tiff.. also salamat po sa treat nyo sa Shakey's last night... these are very much appreciated.. =D

Tim - oy! lupet nating lahat kagabi! sa uulitin chong!

Tiff - the best co-host ive ever been partnered with! you were sooo full of flair and style last night! add to that the great vocal pipes sa set 1 ng Uneven band..

Tim and Tiff - the best dinnertime at Shakey's.. =D nuff said..

lahat kayo: Tim, Tiff, Cooks, Chuck, and everyone who knows this - ngayon klala nyo na.. =D heheh.. no comment anymore.. the best kayong lahat!

tink out... with a very wide smile..

5.21.2005

i feel.....

blessed.

in a couple of hours from now i will be preparing to go to Chuck Araneta's house with all the necessary pieces of clothing i shall use tonight.. what's so special? i will be having a hosting gig tonight - after 3 freaking years!! woohoo!!! - at Tim's self-produced battle of the girl bands.. i am partnered to his lovely and vivacious sister, Tiffany, which makes it cool cuz it's the 1st time im to have a female hosting partner.. every year kc dati sa grade school laging classmate eh.. heheheh....

so bale here's the timetable (at least my timetable...):

7:15 am - open computer, go online
10:00 - call Kim up, a little chika
11:00 - give clothes to be ironed to Ate Nel
11:15 - bath time, watch a little MTV
11:30 - dress up, chillax, pack needed wardrobe
12:00 - go to Chuck's house
1:00 pm - soundcheck at Albergus
6:00 - show starts

uhh... if there's anything i'm really wishing and praying for, it's that payagan pumunta cla Kim tonight, kahit ndi na nila tapusin yung show.. basta makapunta lang cla.. lalang...

shouts:

Kim - good morning, peterpan!! =D call you later!=P tell me good news ayte? hehehe..
Chuck - oi Chuck pare! kitakits maya sa bahay mo..=P
Tim - oi papa! mamaya na! heheheh.. kitakits!
Tiff - heya! have you found the perfect top na?=D lalang.. heheh.. catch ya later!
Jzoners - ill be missing you guys today! see y'all next week!


tinkerbell out.. and happy.

5.20.2005

i am..

scared.

without a doubt i truly admit that i'm scared. why? there's only one answer.. i have come back to the road i thought i will never have to face any longer.. i am once more here, standing in the middle of the crossroad that almost turned my whole life into shambles.. i stand on the same battleground i swore never to fight on..

tink out.

5.19.2005

tarlac.....

rocked my socks.

kaso mo i was tortured at the sight of 4 , that's right, 4 branches of Mcdo placed strategically around the area... bwiset. tuloy namiss ko lalo ung lunch bunch.... ok lang.. had loadsa fun nmn eh... so, no fuss..


ndi ko lam kung ano sasabihin ko eh... kc it was simply great.. being one with nature has this feeling that nothing can compare to... lalo na the wind.. it's whoa... cge na nga.. ill out na..

tink out... and bored.

5.18.2005

leaving...

leaving for Tarlac in a while.. just gna keep this short... that's it.


shouts:

Kim - good mornin peterpan..=D ill definitely be missing you today..=P


tink out.

5.17.2005

i can't believe...

i survived the day... wala lang... most of you guys know what im talking about here... lalo na c cooks, who by the way has been with me everytime i go online in my giddiest - if there's such a word in the conventional english vocabulary - moments.. heheheh... lalang... just fun to think na we weren't even formally introduced.. itsch true! nangyari lang we just started talking the day of the interaction kc we knew we were both Jzoners and then poof! a couple of months later she became one of my really good friends in and out of Jzone.. lalang... she's a real blessing.. i think i oughta share this with her some time... let's just see...

well im just happy, and i freakishly don't know the reason why.. maybe because i just got to prove that my world doesn't revolve around one person alone...yet.... or maybe i just got to chillax and seriously take it slow? i dno... basta i'm happy... and thankful that i am..

shouts for tonight? well... ill try...

cooks - you know everything about me already.. in soo short a time i got to open up my whole shell and tell you my story..=P thanks for always listening and never tiring from hearing what i hafta say in both my dullest and most kilig moments..= )

kim - yes, i missed you (as is the case everyday.. *wink*)...=) i hope you had fun with your friend today...

chuck - kitakits sa shack mo at 1..=P

sa d12 ko - kitakits tayong lahat!! kasama na ako!!! hahahahah....

i guess that's it...

tinkerbell out.

5.16.2005

scribbles and thoughts...

the best time today... Kurt's bday dinner was a blast... the mashed potatoes? the inihaw and pancit? champion pareh!!

talked to Kim today -as always.. lalang... same old same old... one thing noticeable though... panay senti lang ung mga songs na pinatugtog ko sa discman ko sa room... she by rivermaya... sa may bintana, hideaway, etc. by tito Ryan, etc... haii.. lalang... ngayon pa lang i miss her na... anlabo noh?

well it's an okaii kukaii day for me... just bored right now... talking to Gelli... downloading some songs.... old school rock... mga tipong led zep, aerosmith, eric clapton, that stuff... kicking by ass out to bed later...:p

good night guys... no shouts for tonight..

tinkerbell out.

5.15.2005

shouts...

since i wasn't able to save my longer post for tonight im just gna keep it down to the shouts... so here goes...

Kurt: what can i possibly say? you're 15 na and still getting better and wiser... happy birthday gago! harhar...=P
Nikki (Puyat): salamat tlga for passing 5 bucks load sakin knina.. very much appreciated...
Molly: sayang wala ka knina... who wouldn't miss his bestbud after 2 weeks ha? heheheh.. ill just see you next week then..
Kim: finally!! after one LONG week! heheheh... it's always great to talk to you over the fne... always is fun.... praying for your cuz...=P sleep well..
Chuck: o d12 next week ha!? you're my ride! same goes for the 21st..
Tim: all set and good to go! hosting here i come! kitakits!

sa lahat: tulog lang....

5.14.2005

i don't know what to write today....

i have no idea what to do or what to say anymore.. it's a saturday, and im going to Jzone, so, yaay!! gna see everyone again..finally.

i still miss her, and there's no denying to that... i decided to not make the usual every-morning call i do cuz it's kinda.. i dno.. pero bka tumawag din a ko a little later, so, yun.. sana she wnt be too busy by then.. of course i don't want to disturb in any way nh.. busy ang peterpan ko, and i should respect that.. nuff said..

now will i tell cla kaye, molly, and the rest of the inner circle? i dno.. it's just.. ewan. bahala na... im letting it all out later as the need arises...

for now ill just be here... sitting, waiting, hoping.. dreaming.


tinkerbell out.

5.13.2005

nabobobo sa kakatulog.

there're some things i want to put here sa songspot which i know i can't for some reason or another.. i know why, and it's kicking the living daylights outta me.. on a more fortunate note, though, it hasn't gotten to the point where my world stopped revolving and has focused on only one aspect of my life.. what kicks my alcoholically-challenged butt? it's on its way to being there na.. buti na lang i was confronted early on by someone i never expected to before things got out of hand.. to that friend, forever i'll be thankful..


anyhoo today's jumpstart was rather, uhh, unusual.. i dno.. maybe, after what i made chika with sa mga kachat ko last night.. right now i'm just browsing my message archive at ym, and just killing time... it is a friday and it's gonna be another long day.. at least, if i don't get to talk to who i want to talk to... labo no? most of you guys - and girls - know who i'm talking about, yet still some have no idea... malamang kc baka ndi nyo cya klala.. wala lang.. hainku.. eto na nmn akosh.. ranting and yapping about it again.. *talks to self* anu ba!? kari just talked to you last night about it tpos here you are, renting again on a friday morning.. mahn!....

i don't know.. sabi ko it hasn't gotten to the point na it's revolving on one aspect lang.. sabi ni kari IT IS on its way there... wait... not it.. I am on the way there...

or maybe i already am there.


tink out.

5.10.2005

hinahanap-hanap kita...

haii.. this day went very boring for me... excpet nung times na katext ko c Kimmy and nung nag-jamming kmi ni eliza knina sa ateneo high before her class.... haii... bored... i super duper miss my peter pan.... sana magtext na cya ulet.. haii.... ang short ng post ko ngayn... kc.. wala ako masabi eh... except for the fact that i miss Kim.. a lot lot...

shouts:

Kim - miss you na tlga peter pan koo... text k nmn... =D heheheh... ill be waiting..
KA - great time chatting with you! sa uulitin!
Nikki (Puyat) - thanks for bearing with me in my senti mood swing..=P
Inez - naku day!! salamat sa walang sawang pakikipag-usap skn ngayong araw na toh...=P
Eliza - great time jamming knina! glad that you liked my song..=)

tinkerbell out.

She - Rivermaya

now this song may not be penned by Tito Ryan, but this song by Mike Elgar of Rivermaya just expresses in a very simple way yung love nya para sa kanyang misis.. heheheh... i'm such a sucker for love songs, aren't i?

Chorus
She's so fine, it's just amazing
I can't help but just keep staring

Like a magic spell found only in my eyes
that i can share
that i will share

Like a rainbow bright up in the sky
and she don't care
coz she don't care

Chorus

Like a smile that hides away her pain
that she can share
that she will share

Look into her eyes and you will see
that she don't care
coz she don't care

instrumental

i'm amazed that the world could be
so beautiful
so beautiful

And for the first time in my life
i'm not afraid
i'm not afraid to live

She's so fine, it's just amazing
She's so fine, it's just amazing
She's so fine, it's just amazing
She's so fine, it's just amazing

i wish i could write something as simple yet as comprehendable as this.. super simple lang yung words na ginamit nya, but it all means the world to him.. malamang, kc he wrote this nga for his wife... lupet...

tink out.

Torpe

I
ano ba ang dapat sabihin
kelangan ba talagang aminin
hindi kaya ako magmistulang tanga
ano kaya'ng aking mapapala

Pre-ch1
dehins ba nya nakikita
masilaya't madama man lang
bakit di n'ya maipinta
awit ng sa kanya'y humahanga

Chorus
Hindi ko na kayang itago pa sa'yo
Hindi ko mapigilang amining may kaba
Hayaan nang lumaya kahit sandali lang
Awitin ang dalangin ko para sa'yo

II
ilang oras na akong nag-iisip
ilang araw na rin ang umiidlip
hindi ko lang alam ang gagawin
hindi pipwedeng umasa na lang sa ngiti

Pre-ch2
hindi pa ba malinaw
kelangan ba akong magwala
kailan pa mapipinta
awitin ng sayo'y umaasa

dapat naka-post to last night pa...

i woke up to a bright Monday morn feeling all shitty and stuff, after the unexpected events of last Sunday which only Jamon knows.. but im hella glad i went to play at Don Antonio with the crew - Inez, Kim, Jamon, Jami, and 2 new others - KA and Hannah.. why? kc at that point in time all the sadness went away.. they all took it away in a whiff.. ayun.. moving on..

we hung out at peterpan's house... but i had to be fetched at 6... and i really felt depressed, kc i was really expecting to be able to hang out with them for a longer period of time.. but the choice was not mine to make, so i had to leave... before i left though, i was given sumthn seemingly normal for friends, but extra special to me that time.. grabe... Jamon, Kim and Inez just completed my day with hugs.... hahahah... wala lang..

oh, yeah.. i asked Kim's dad na if i can take her to my prom! hahaha! super aga noh!? pero ok lang... kc im sure it's gna be wirth it...

i went home feeling very happy and contented.... it made me realize that... sometimes, all you need is a hug...


shouts:

Jamon - disipulo!! salamat sa pagtambay kahapon.. you just put the 'eh' in funneh, mehn! harhar...

Kim & Inez - peterpan and inday.. how can my day be complete without you guys? i swear if not for the two of you and Jamon walang kwenta araw ko...

KA - heya KA! it's great to have finally met you! looking forward to more tambayan sessions with you and the whole crew.. =)

Hannah - naku sorry at ndi na kta napansin nung paalis ka na! i was really confused that time kc ndi k pa nakukuha change ko from buying drinks... sorry tlga...

everyone - you guys are simply the best.. i wish i could have stayed longer, but i had to go na tlga, so, sorry... sa uulitin na lang (kung may next time pa...)!!=D


tink out.

5.09.2005

Hideaway - Ryan Cayabyab

ang galing ng kantang to... wala lang... i just found myself finding it worthy to be posted..well, all tito's songs are more than worthy to be posted here...


a nice deserted beach lost in a field of wheat
a lazy jungle beat while dancing cheek to cheek
a sailboat out to sea, a small house in capri
two movie tickets free for only you and me

together we will find a hideaway
where we can stay from day to day
we'll find a hiding place
where we could promise a love we will cherish each day

i'd like a moonless night when all the stars are bright
if only you and i were holding real tight
i'l like to tend a bike or try a mountain hike
if only you and i were huggin' real tight

together we will find a hideaway
where we can stay from day to day
we'll find a hiding place
where we could promise a love we will cherish

from this moment untill forever
it will be you and me together

together we will find a hideaway
where we can stay from day to day
we'll find a hiding place
where we could promise a love we will cherish each day



i seriously dno how tito does it, but even though his songs seem simple, there's the magic that can only be felt.. im a sucker for these kinds of songs - simple but extremely magical.. i hafta admit i've always admired him as a songwriter... he's got an indelible influence in me, and i can't hide that... wala lang...


tink out.

5.08.2005

shout-outs...

it's a booring Sunday morning, and im feeling great!! hahahaha.... wala lang.. tomorrow i'll be joining my friends at the Commonwealth side of town to just play badminton, then go to Kim's house for a little gettogether afterwards.. wala lang... can't wait... seriously.. i'm all ecstatic to go and hit shuttlecocks already, not just with anyone, but with my friends (malamang dehins enjoy pag dehins kasama ang barkada sa pagpalo diba?)... but still i know i hafta wait patiently, although there's a lot of emotion, cuz there's great anticipation on my part.. ill be bringing a guitar - i hope - cuz i'll be unveiling 2 new songs to my barkada - one sa lahat, and the other for twinee.. (the other one for twinee... *giggle* lol)

so there...

this is the first time im doing this, so here's my blabber for today:

- God ---> thanks for the brand new day You've given! Can't wait for Your blessing tomorrow! =)
- moms ---> happy mothers' day!!! we wouldn't be this blessed without you guys.. thank you..
- Jzoners ---> i miss you all guys na! ill be there this Sat na talaga...
- mr. Tim ---> sorry ndi ako nakapunta chong.. hayaan.. ill make it up to you sa susunod... =D
- mga papalo bukas ---> kitakits na lang tayo!
- peterpan koo---> good morning!! good to know you slept well last night... see you tomorrow!! *huggie*
- Jamon ---> bwiset ka ndi ka na nag-online kagabi.. i waited from 6-9 pm ha! pero oks lang..;) bukas ha!


tink out.

5.07.2005

steady boi. steady.

i woke up to a very long and boring Saturday... there's ym, no friend to talk to over the phone, no Jzone.. although i woke up to a boring morning, it was nevertheless a great one, thanks to the great friend i most affectionately call my peterpan... heheheh... tinkerbell tlga..

so we fast forward into the latter part of the day and we find tinkerbell in a bored state... after taking time off bashing a little P.O.T. and a dash of Narda on Maya - my guitar - i ran through 2 of my compositions, the ones ima singing on Monday, then just fell asleep... to be awakened to the sound of my little cousin's voice telling me that it's time to eat na...

haii... so many things i wish i could do today... wala lang... im just waiting for the Chan sibs to go online, then ill be okay.. pero may kulang...

she's at Antipolo right now, with her family... i seriously don't think we can still get the chance to talk on the phone, since im betting she's gna be quite tired... wala din cya on sunday, pero, sanay na nmn ako ma-bore pag Sundays eh... i must say, though, that i miss her... ok lang kc after Sunday comes Monday, everyone's most awaited day... heheheh... wala lang... i miss my peterpan, and im not hiding it.. sana magtext cya or anything.. haii...

for the meantime, i can only say one thing: steady.

pero, if she sees this new post, eto lang masasabi ko to her: i miss you, peterpan....=)

tinkerbell out.

5.06.2005

wala lang..

such a great day... sarap ng gising...

woke up to a brand new friday which, as i expected, was a bore... hahaha... but i'm happily bored..=P thanks to my twinee who always manages to liven up the day and brighten up the light of the sun.. hehehe... nothing really unusual happened or was talked about... just the same old things... masaya.

i dunno if i should put this here, but i just asked twinee to the prom... my prom.. alam kong maaga pa mciado, but it's good to prepare early right? =D heheheh... yes, i was thinking straight when i asked her, so no one can tell me that im crazy.. seriously.. i mean, i should be going there with sum1 im really comfy with, and im sooo super comfy talking to her... and, i feel realy comfy with her around, so, yun na un... harharhar...

im gna miss her.. wla cya bukas and on sunday.... pero im gna get to play badminton with her na on monday (sa wakas!!!!! =D ) tpos hang out with everyone after pa..=P wala lang... blessed.

im sooooo bangag right now.... after all that happened today, i don't see any reason to not feel giddy... weird no? im feeling all giddy and stuff... like a girl... only m not... hahaha!

ciao.

btw, thanks for saying yes..=) you know who you are... see you soon.. *huggie* mwah!

Habang atin ang gabi....

namumugto'ng 'yong mga mata
nais pa atang maglabas ng luha
hindi ko makalimutan pa
pangakong sa ati'y sariwa

hindi kailangang buhatin mag-isa
pasanin na sayo'y pampaluha
di mo ba makuha'ng puna
anghel na nasa tabi mo lang

hawakan mo'ng aking kamay
ibaling sa'kin ang lumbay
makikinig hanggang makatulog ka sa'king mga kamay
oras ay palilipasin
hindi tayo guguluhin
habang nasa atin ang gabi

hayaan mong ako'y pakinggan ka
alalayan ka sa 'yong pag-iisa
pakinggan ka sa 'yong problema
tulungang gumaan ang luksa

5.04.2005

the female peter pan..

weird.. well, not really.. kc in the chatroom, im tinkerbell to jamon and co., and there's supposed to be a peter pan... pero since im a guy, im one of tinkerbell's kind... and peter pan is a girl... hahaha! but.

who is the female peter pan (aka fpp.)? that's what everyone's been asking me... she is in the conference everytime nmn... it's such a shame they guys dnt know... sabi nya she dznt wna be vain... pero she doesn't know.. of course id try to make her feel pero.. ndi pa rin nya magets.. as a matter of fact she's even asking me who the fpp is... funny no?

ang kaso mo, it actually is her.

5.03.2005

uhh...

i got to talk to her again.. ahay! heheheh... araw araw naman eh! pero ang cool kaya.... andaming pwedeng pag-usapan.. wala lang... super sabog/happy/kilig/ndi ko maintindihan lang ako ngayn... eheheh... seriously though... it's great... it's actually like a dream, only it's not... i mean, check this.. it's not a common thing for 2 ppl who kinda like each other to just sit down and talk about crushing on each other, what the parents think of the other (lalo na if the conversation was unintentionally - nga ba? - overheard...hahaha! tapos normally nagkakailangan na if they find out that they're actually crushing on each other.. thing is though walang ilangan eh... weird, but it's a good thing! tuloy lang ang ligaya sa tugtugan.. pero wala lang.. ibang klase tong friendship nmin ni Kim... sumtimes even i can't seem to understand how it became possible.... but then again, there's God, and nothing is impossible with Him... coincidence? i don't think so... it's for you to decide... pero ako? im blessed.. blessed cuz even after telling Kim what i told her last Sat and last night, we still can actually manage to talk to each other na walang ilangan.... tagay!

5.02.2005

i should have posted this last Sat...

sabado.. of course i had to go to Mcdo, which i did, since it was the last day of the lunch club's review class.. as always Kim and Inez were there.. Abi was there, and who would have ever thought that Joao would be there! hahaha! anyways we had the usual string of fun... there's the stolen pics (hahaha!), the occasional harutan (and my gosh... Joao had heavy B.O. mehn!!! ew.), and the same old meals we've been taking since the 1st day of our classes... heheh.. wala lang..

i told Kim that i was crushing on her.. bka kc unahan ako nila Joao or Inez eh...hahaha! pero mas mabuti na yung sa'kin na nya narinig db? =) kya yun.. as in, simpleng blurting out lang... tpos wala lang.. parang walang nangyari... astig nga eh.. for a moment i kinda thought everything's gna change, but no! seriously it didn't... kc nung nag-alisan na kmi Kim told me sumthn i didn't see coming at all... and that i believe is sumthn i'll keep to myself.. basta i didn't see it coming.. pero it made me feel good about myself.. =) like what we told each other last sat, nothing's gna change.. the attention, the barkadahan, as in walang mag-iiba at all...

now it made me think... it made the friendship stronger, did it? for sure i know it did.. kc we didn't let it hinder the friendship.. harhar...