i am in...

confusion.

i know i shouldn't be worrying about this thing cuz it's not my problem pero why am i worrying? it's so senseless.. sumthn to do with my bestfriend.. not Molly, not Jobim, not Jamon.. basta ako na lang may kilala sa knia para walang gulo..

weird thing was the last time she was sooo happy with the beau.. now i find she's single again... not that emotions of a time long ago have come back, no, but i find myself clueless as to how it all happened.. i mean, we havn't talked for the longest time now, so i have no idea how she is... she doesn't even go to Jzone anymore..

bakit nga ba ako namumrublema ng hindi ko naman problema in the first place? ewan. basta alam ko sumthn went wrong.. that's all i can say...

for now.

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i hope everything's alright..

on my side of the planet, things havn't been going that oh so well, either..

i never thought that my side that's easy to make kilig, and easy to make senti and cheezy, would actually manifest itself while im at Jzone.. it's very embarassing.. i mean.... anlabo tlga mehn!! as in sobrang muntik na akong tumalon-talon dahil sa kasentihan! grabe na to!!! i dnt know why though.... freaky tlga grabe.... hayhay... wala na magagawa.. nangyari na eh.. anyways.....

ill be doing my homework from 11-1... tpos lunch 1-1:30... 2pm meet kmi ni Zino sa ateneo high para i-drive na lang kmi ni dad to UP for the water samples from the lagoon, pictures, and all that... hayhay...

i miss neverland... lagi naman eh.. seriously i know i always say that pero i really do miss them... ahh, summer days...when Kim, Kari, Inez and I would go lunching out at Mcdo.... when we all played badminton.. without Kim the 1st time, with Hannah and KA the 2nd time... but school's here now and there's only the workload to do....

now why is it that i almost always find myself ranting about the summer that's come and gone by so fast? it's almost a month now since all the fun and the best things in my life came to be.. lunch at Mcdo everyday with 3 of my neverland, badmintoning with the Chans, Inez, & Kim, the hosting gig, last lunch with the lunch bunch for the summer, the ym sessions, the seemingly-endless conversations on the phone, and all others i know i will always treasure in my heart... i guess i just don't want to move on... it all happened so fast i didn't want it to end.. but it did..

hayhay.... here i am again ranting.. this could go on for hours so im just gna stop...

out.

sorry sa kasentihan, pero...

i seriously wished that i lived in my own Neverland, where days and nights never end whenever i'm with all the people who mean to me.. i'm not trying to single out any of my friends here, im just wishing here.. after all, it's free right?

i am in thought.. what if there really is a Neverland in our midst? will it be exactly as what i see it as in my dreams? or will it be a big disappointment from the start? my own cliche-ish version of neverland is a place where time never ends and one is at his happiest... i know it's been overused kahit na version ko to.. but.. come to think of it....

i think Neverland is a feasible thing... actually it IS real.. it becomes real in the presence of the friends we hold dearly close to the heart.. it doesn't necessarily mean a place, actually.. all i'm trying to say is that when we're with the people we hold dearly close to the heart, Neverland begins... with them, time just seems to slow down, if not stop... one loses track of the time, actually, because of all the happiness surging throughout the restless one's soul, just by simply being with his friends even for just a while.. that while, no matter how short, seems like forever with them...

i know i have found my Neverland... and i can only thank Him who gave them to me.. they are my biggest blessing from above.. friends, thank you for showing me how happy life can be, even if the going gets tough sometimes, if not most of the time..

Inez, Kim, Kari, Jami, Jamon, you guys are my Neverland.. i know i can never express this in good enough ways.. that's why i can't thank God enough.. sana complete tayong lahat sa bday celeb ko.. it's gna mean a lot to me, cuz i'm at my happiest with each of you.. i miss all of you right now.. i love you guys..

estudyante blues train, bebeh...

1st day.... 1st headache.. hahahah.... lalang.. i guess im just tired from this 1st day... and surprisingly, it WAS really tiring, even if i just sat my butt off the whole time.. meeting all the teachers and stuff like that... very... boring... heheh...XD

anyhoo.... i think i have good teachers this year.. class moderator pa lang ayos na eh.. c Ms. de la Paz.. she's my english teacher, too... she's not really that pretty, pero i think that should be more than enough reason for me, mr communications major wannabe, to actually be on my toes the same way i was back in my grade school and freshman days.. so much for that...

this is the part wherein i just pause and think a while..... (pauses)

so how does one get to live with 7-8 50 min periods per day!? mahn.... they still had to revert it back to the original... hay hay... wala lang...

i hope this particular friend of mine's alright.. she's still not in any mood to go to school eh.. well, who wouldn't understand after all that she's been through last school year? like i said, i hope she's okay...

well, well, well... bukas? lecture agad sa chem and computer... grabe na to ha! wala pa man 1 week lecture na agad! grrrr!! pero la na magagawa... junior high na eh, diba!? XP

ts raining... again. it's making me soooo senti.. in fact, nilalabnat na nga ako eh! heheh.. may namimiss ako... no doubt about that... say no more, tricco.. say no more...

i guess yun lang kaya ko isulat for today.. basta kung ano man ang mangyayari for this year, one thing's for certain... i'm not gna do anything stupid, and this year's for Him....

tink out.

steady lang...

shet! nabura yung buong blog post ko!!!!!

im gna try to just redo it since wala na ako magagawa pa...

for the past few days ive been trying to keep myself steady because of the aftershock Revenge of the Sith brought... it's not in the events of the movie.. it's in the emotions and insights it brought me in MY life... iba na to eh... and to soothe the minor confusion a bit i've been talking to some friends from both sexes... and wow... andami ko nadiscover...

anyhoo... bka mayang 12 alis na ako.. going to go to Abelardo Hall sa UP to help out a bit sa recital ng music studio ng dad ni Krina.. malamang i wouldn't, couldn't AND simply will not refuse them..=) after all, it's because of them that i had experience being in a really good choir for a time..

nga lang may problem.. lunchbreak nila Inez bukas is from 12-1.. eh im needed tomorrow at 1:30.. so malamang baka magpunta ako sa last get together ng lunch bunch (with or without Kim) kahit sandali OR dehins na tlga ako ppnta.. eitherway, im telling Inez... text ko cya a little later...

i just hope everything's gonna be alright.... maybe there's something that He wants to tell me kaya nagkabuhol-buhol ang sked ko for this weekends.... wait.. not maybe... there is something He wants to tell me, and im too busy to hear Him calling me... i should loosen up... make time to talk to Him... it's been the longest time now since i last got to have a good heart-to-heart talk with God..

and i really really miss Him.

"a little sorry should make everything alright.."

and out na c triccy.

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sweet_guev: hey tricco, late night na noh! Wala lang. Lam ko offline ka. Pero la na din akong load eh.haha, wala lang. Miss na kita triccy! Haven't been hearing from you in a while eh. Wala lang. sorry sa attitude ko nga pala nung isang araw. Daming problema sa house and ung teacher ko nga it all piled up. Sorry again...Miss na kita triccy!Yuck ang pathetic ko. Haha, wala lang. Ingat ka and I hope okay ka lang diyan. Yun lang. Sige, take care. Sorry sa abala.


i miss you too, Kimmy...


out.