why can't it be me for even just once?

why?

does it always have to be him who has to suffer unknowingly?

why can't i stand in his place?

everytime we experience the extremeties of our financial plight, he's always been the one put on the pedestals of a cliffhanger.

it's not fair.

what ever happened to yin and yang? balance? where's the balance of suffering here?

my mum and dad have it.

my friends and i have it.

he and his friends have it.

so how come Kurt and I can't have it like we do in our other circles?

we should...

we must.

he won't be able to take it if he found out his schooling's hanging in a balance.

he won't say a thing but i know he'll be hit really hard.

i'm not just worried for him anymore...

i'm scared.

-18-

3 months... and stronger.

i love you Kim.

=)

wala na akong maaaring hilingin pa..

i know an update's been long overdue na, but i never really took the time to put anything of worth primarily 'cuz nothing was worth posting....

that is, until this afternoon.

i just came home from a Tagaytay-Binubusan trip with, get this, Kim and her family.. but of course who would forget our good old friends Macrise and Steph!XP hehehe... (btw, i just found out that Steph is my cousin...mga 2nd-4th degree ata..XP) we stayed at Kim's house the whole time until we left for Binubusan, Batangas for the pyesta going on at Macrise's old 'hood..XD well, ive really nothing to say but, for one thing, i've always prayed for a vacation like the one i had just recently... but who would expect that it's going to happen with me being tagged along by my girlfriend and her family right? hehehe... nung una nga sobra akong kinakabahan eh.. hehehe.. pero later on a was able to open up naman, and by the time i was waiting for my dad to pick me up at Mcdo with the Guevarras, naging errand boy na rin ako! sa wakas!! hahahaha.. seriously if there's one thing i love doing, it would be doing errands for my family AND my girlfriend's family... =) so there...

i could ask for nothing more.. i got to go on vacation, plus factor is that it's with Kim and her family, Mac and Steph, and that it's a whole weekend...

so what more could i say? (i haven't done this in a very long time..)

God - You know the desires of my heart.. and i thank you that it all went well...
Kim - thanks for the weekend hun....=) sana maulit in the future... i love you.
Mac - dod! sa uulitin! balitaan mo ako tubngkol dun!XD
Steph - pinsan! it's great to actually be able to be with you out on this trip and get to know you more..=) sa susunod na tambay! hehehe...